One step forward, 2 steps back

You know which Paula Abdul song I'm talking about. It gets stuck in your head anytime you hear anything about stepping forward and back. And then you picture the video on your head at the same time... with that cartoon cat and crazy Paula and the cat and jumping all over the stairs and dancing. So since you're seeing and hearing it in your head and you see them all over the stairs, forward, backward, forward, jumping, dancing..... that's what is going on in my life right now.

Things will be relatively peaceful for a short amount of time. Until I check my bank account. Or I have a lag of time where I have no work opportunities.

A couple weeks ago, the kids got that dang stomach bug that has been going around. That lasted over a week. I was about to scratch my eyes out. I'm getting used to vomit, but diarrhea is something I will never get used to. YUCK!

I had my last wisdom tooth taken out yesterday. My jaw still hurts really bad. The actual procedure didn't hurt at all (and I knew it wouldn't.. I had my other 3 taken out a long time ago all at one time) ... the tooth was actually growing in sideways cause there wasn't enough room in my mouth. The root of it was difficult to get to, so it took a little longer because they had to drill and pry and pull and all kinds of stuff to get it out. lol I know, I can't think about it in much detail because it's gross. But I saw the part that didn't want to come out. Lemme tell ya, I'm glad they worked as hard as they did to get it out, cause it looked painful!

I'm taking the kids to their dad this weekend. I have a class to take for the divorce before it's final and it's this weekend. The ex hasn't taken his yet. hahahaha...

I'm feeling pretty frustrated with a lot of things right now. It's hard to explain. I'm worried. That's nothing new. But that's about as much detail as I want to get in to right now. Thinking about it all the time makes me feel worse and I'm tired of being so stressed out that I can't smile or enjoy my time with my kids. At the same time it's hard to have faith that everything will work out. I'm working as hard as I can to make ends meet, but I see no reward for my effort and it's frustrating.

Kids are okay... Rotten boy had all his binkies taken away a couple weeks ago... he cries a lot now. But he's talking a lot more. My little chatterbox is showing a much more affectionate side... but she also STILL asks 800 questions in a row, always the same ones. Hoping to get some progress made with getting them both evaluated.

It's time to go take my medicines so the dentist doesn't yell at me ... lol (yeah right) I'm going to bed. Till next time ...

The single mom.