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I can't fall asleep at night. It's been this way for months. I feel relatively safe, so I'm not paranoid with apartment living. The kids sleep all night long. My bed isn't as comfy as I was hoping it would be, but it's not terrible. I just can't get to sleep.
It's almost 2 am my time, and I'm awake. Blogging. Being awake at this time is the norm for me these days. If I could, I'd like to sleep my days away, just like he did when we were married. Must have been nice to avoid all those responsibilities and then have the nerve to get mad at me because I was pissed that he wouldn't get out of bed at 11:30 am when I needed help cleaning up a massive mess the kids made. Oh yeah. That was constant. On the weekends, there was no use in getting anything done or going anywhere as a family. Nope, he slept it away. He would wake up around 3 pm, just in time for the kids to start falling apart.
In a way, it's much easier for me to be alone with the kids. I don't have anyone to tell me when something needs to be cleaned. I can do it on my own dang time. I don't have an extra adult that acts like a child and needs to be cared for 24/7. I just have two actual children who are very busy and make me exhausted. lol As if I wasn't already. "Sleeping in" for me now means anything past 8:30 (and those of you who know me well know that this is a miracle in and of itself) and time by myself is nearly a thing of the past.
I think tomorrow is a good nap day. *rubbing eyes* .... Maybe I should attempt a few hours of sleep before my hoodlums get up and start emptying my fridge. lol
The single mom.
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